When the whole world goes crazy about one calamity or the other...
When everything goes not as you expected...
When everything goes not as you expected...
When things go from bed to worse...
When you being the way you are hurts so much you can't take a breath anymore...
When you look in the mirror and don't recognize the body, the face, the person looking back at you...
When you look at that mirror, and ask yourself: how did I get to this, how did I become like this...
When you don't know who you are or what you want anymore...
When you've lost any kind of personality, character, interests, views, opinions, hopes and dreams...
When you manage somehow to keep up the resemblance of normality around others, but break down in tears every tiny moment that you get to be alone...
When the words "tomorrow" and "next time" have become your attributes...
When you already lost the count of how many times you said "I've had it... Enough is enough... This time I'll do things differently, I'll stick to my plan..." And yet somehow you end up for the umptieth time back again and sunk yet a bit dipper then where you started...
When you just don't want to wake up and open your eyes in the morning because of all the mess in literary all the aspects of your life...
When you mourn the ones who departed and feel rotten for how things are with the ones who're still in your life...
When all else fails...
Dust of your sneakers. Lace up. Get out of the door.
That's what I did today.
It's been exactly one year since my previous run. And I had to struggle with myself to get out there.
But once the door is closed behind you, it's basically just putting one foot in front of the other.
My journey starts today...
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